Friday, August 22, 2008

Hungry For Baby

It's true, I'm hungry for babies. Well, not just babies, but at least one baby. I feel like everyone around me is pregnant. I have 3 sister-in-laws and two are expecting. Wait wait... let me explain so you'll understand. I have 4 siblings.

Jason - oldest, smartest, has a PhD.
Married to Vicki they have 2 children. Josh - 3 yrs almost 4 and Claire - will be 12 months September 10th.

Kevin - Next oldest, has his masters, is the most friendly and outgoing (besides myself, of course)
Married to Lena they have one child and are expecting their 2nd. Isak - 15 months Fetus - Due February 17th.

Nathan - 3rd oldest, will graduate with his Bachelors in April (as will I), and is the most driven of all my siblings.
Married to Stephanie they are expecting their first child February 21st.

Whitney - this is me, I'm amazing and awesome and I can't wait to graduate in April with my Bachelors in Health Science so I can finally have me some BABIES!

Lindsey - The youngest and is my only sister. She's very outgoing and is absolutely hilarious. I love spending time with her and am glad she has chosen to live in Rexburg.
Not married and currently single, for any of you young men out there who are wondering (Yes, she's a beautiful almost 20 year old brunette who would definitely keep you on your toes. Man, she'll love me for offering her up on my blog.)

My Family

So there you have it; my siblings. All of us girls, except my spinsty single sister, all planned on having some babies in the year 2009. As you can see two of them took this very seriously and jumped the gun almost too early. Well... here I am, blazing my way through school trying not to think about babies cause I know I can't have any till I graduate. I know I know... I've only been married for almost 17 months; but you see... were settled. Forever. In Rexburg (sigh....). I married a man with a career and he's 5 years older than I. So, he has been set up here for some time and I just get to be along for the ride. It's nice most of the time. Him being done with school and us never having to worry about where we might end up or how we'll end up there. So, the excuse that we can't bring a child into our world because we are not prepared or cannot handle the responsibility or cannot afford or will have to tote around the U.S. is not an excuse. Okay.. so onto being hungry...

I paid for my school clothes all growing up by baby sitting. I love kids. I feel rather knowledged on the subject of children; especially without having any of my own. (I don't need to hear about how hard it is or what a responsibility or anything, I know I know I know) The idea of having to take care of a teeny little baby does not frighten me in the least. The idea of popping a BABY out of ME on the other hand is horribly terrifying. I've gone through bouts of wanting a baby and not wanting one at all. Feeling much too young (I'm 22) and then feeling like I'm getting too old. (In the Mormon culture... 22 is plenty old to start a family). To be honest, I want to be done having kids by the time I'm 35 if I can help it; sooner if I can manage that. So.... I kinda want to get started. I don't feel pressured at all, especially since 2 of the 4 of us are already expecting. I just personally want a baby. My husband is not at all ready, hence the fact that we are not "trying" right now. He's almost 27, but he doesn't care, he says that he's not the one who has to have the babies and raise them, I'm the one that has to be young. I'm not ready right this second... because I don't want to be wheeled into the Hospital in my graduation gown (ew, horrible image) But how do I get a hold on myself and get rid of the baby hunger for a few more months? It's driving me mad. Not even kidding when I say all of my friends and most of my family are expecting or have just had babies. These are the times when it's the worst

  • Sacrament meeting when all around me are babies looking all cute and cuddly.
  • Seeing Fathers holding their infants.
  • Seeing a pregnant woman
  • Looking at baby furniture (I can't help myself!!!!)
  • Walking through a parking lot and seeing a car seat in a car
  • (don't think I'm crazy) hearing a crying baby (I want to hold them and calm them down, cause I know chances are I probably can. I always have)
  • Being around my pregnant family and feeling a teensy eentsy bit left out.
  • Right now not being in school; I have waaaay too much time on my hands to feel lonely and think about it (next semester starts in 2 weeks... boo).
So. What to do, what to do.... I am surrounded by growing belly's and mostly happy women about it. I have a husband who all but cringes when I mention babies and "trying" dates. And I just cannot help myself... I want a gosh darn baby next summer! Blasted farming for getting in the way.

The Happy Seedless Couple


My neice Claire and I. She made me the baby hungriest of them all.

17 comments:

Adam and Kristina said...

There are times when I wish I were baby hungry. Would make things easier. I'm 30, have been married for 4 1/2 years, and my biological clock has never ticked. It's been a struggle and I freaked out about turning 30, and still not wanting kids.

We'll see what happens down the road. Oh, and I like kids, even though I joke about hating them, but I don't like small babies. 6 months or older, I'm OK, but brand new babies freak me out. I don't want to hold them and I don't find them cute. I'm a bad Mormon.

Ben and Jamie Stott said...

I hear ya! Everyone is preggers! I am so baby hungry it isn't even funny! I totally understand!

The Raybould Family said...

Kristina, I'm commenting on here cause I've commented 3 times on your last post and this is so off subject of your post.

I don't think not wanting kids makes you a bad Mormon. It's totally a personal decision. If it'll help, you go ahead and make your baby and I'll raise it for the first 6 months cause that's when they can't talk back :) Then I'll give it back and it'll be like it never left. How does your husband feel?

Lon & Steph said...

Not to add to your problem...but your situation sounds SO like mine did this time last year...haha. SO funny. And look where I am now! My husband gave in, he wasn't ready either. I just wouldn't quit begging. AND if you got pregnant now, you would graduate before having it. I got pregnant almost exactly a year ago now and Eden was born the end of May! Giving birth I think is so much easier than the horror stories you hear. It's not that bad :) You would make such cute babies. I for one, am on your side. All I can say is good luck to your husband. The wife always wins....

Lon & Steph said...

OH, one more thing, if it helps, motherhood is even better than it seemed. And my husband is everybit wrapped around her little finger and would NEVER have it any other way, even if he wasn't completely ready. And I Just realized, this is the opposite kind of comment you probably needed...

Adam and Kristina said...

Adam's on board with things right now. I check in with him and ask him, because he is much better with young babies than I am, so when he's holding one, etc., I ask. He says he's OK right now. I've always thought about adopting a toddler. I love that age.

We've talked about trying next spring, so that when I actually had the baby, he would be done with school.

I'm hoping none of my family or his comes here, as we really don't like to talk about our personal family planning decisions with them. I don't have a problem talking about it with perfect strangers, but I refuse to do so with family. :) It's none of their business and the constant questions aren't going to get them anywhere.

I sound like such a buzz kill! Oh, and I was looking at new backgrounds, and yours is one I was thinking of changing it too! It's so cute!

The Raybould Family said...

I think I might have found a permanent background, I love this background. Use it too!
I doubt your fam will come here. I wont mention anything of interest on your blog about this so no one will come lookin. I know what you mean, though. Jaren is the most private person. My family knows how baby hungry I am, but we don't talk about it with his. I wonder how surprised they'll be when I do announce someday. I think it's wise to wait for your husband to be done with school so he can be there for you cause you'll be goin crazy with an infant. You'll need him to get you through the first 6 months :)

Mandy said...

I can totally understand where you're coming from. I knew that I had to have a degree in my hand before I could get too hungry for some babies... But plans change and sometimes they don't come when you're planning. I'm sure you are the greatest aunt ever! I know Nathan and Steph are lucky to have you so close!

Scooby and Jon said...

I understand the baby hungry...I think I've been baby hungry since my first neice was born when I was 7. Plus, my DH and I were in the nursery when we moved into our ward, which was awesome, but man I got baby hungry!
But you'll have your degree, which kicks my butt!!

susan said...

It's so fun to read your take on your siblings. Jason may have a doctorate, but he will always be Jason Basin Perry Mason to me! (smile). You guys are amazing grownups!

AND...

It's a lot easier to put off having a baby for a few months then to go back to school later.

Just Sayin'!
Aunt Susan

Lena Gilbert said...

Um whitney. I know it is hard. I remember when I desperately wanted to get pregnant. However, despite all that, I am so glad that we waited as long as we did to have Isak because you never get that time back no matter all the baby sitters you might have.Claire is very cute and cuddly and would make you baby hungry. You should come spend a day with my crazy son who has started to throw tantrums and likes us to lug around all 26+ pounds of him. That might buy you a couple months....

Jake & Victoria Elder said...

Soon whitney soon! let's get preggo at the same time!

Alexis and Casey Treese said...

I say dont wait...procreate. At least that's what I say now.

Brittany said...

I've been married 7 years and no kids yet. I'll be 30 next July and I don't really feel "old". I hope to have a baby next year, but that is totally dependant on whether or not we are chosen by a birthmom. We'll see.
I'm with Kristina though, babies younger than 6 mos. freak me out. I can't hold them. They look like hams. That's probably a bad sign.

Chelle said...

you are too cute! best of luck begatting..(is that a word?)Of course when the time is right...

*MARY* said...

I have two kids and I'm STILL baby hungry so I don't know what to tell you. My husband is so baby stuffed and I'm pretty sure he won't be hungry for the rest of his life. I'm scared he's gonna go get a vasectomy without telling me,maybe he already has, who knows?

Jessica said...

WAIT. Finish school. I don't care what you say, once you have a baby, you won't finish. And you'll always wish you had. You're SO close to being done.

And besides. Do you think anything is going to change? You live in Rexburg. Everyone you know will be pregnant again next year too. Or the year after. It'll just be the other half of everyone you know.

You should be friends with my sister. She and her husband live in Rexburg and she's not pregnant. Then again, I'm not either so, we can be friends too. :)