It's true, I'm hungry for babies. Well, not just babies, but at least one baby. I feel like everyone around me is pregnant. I have 3 sister-in-laws and two are expecting. Wait wait... let me explain so you'll understand. I have 4 siblings.
Jason - oldest, smartest, has a PhD.
Married to Vicki they have 2 children. Josh - 3 yrs almost 4 and Claire - will be 12 months September 10th.
Kevin - Next oldest, has his masters, is the most friendly and outgoing (besides myself, of course)
Married to Lena they have one child and are expecting their 2nd. Isak - 15 months Fetus - Due February 17th.
Nathan - 3rd oldest, will graduate with his Bachelors in April (as will I), and is the most driven of all my siblings.
Married to Stephanie they are expecting their first child February 21st.
Whitney - this is me, I'm amazing and awesome and I can't wait to graduate in April with my Bachelors in Health Science so I can finally have me some BABIES!
Lindsey - The youngest and is my only sister. She's very outgoing and is absolutely hilarious. I love spending time with her and am glad she has chosen to live in Rexburg.
Not married and currently single, for any of you young men out there who are wondering (Yes, she's a beautiful almost 20 year old brunette who would definitely keep you on your toes. Man, she'll love me for offering her up on my blog.)
My Family
So there you have it; my siblings. All of us girls, except my spinsty single sister, all planned on having some babies in the year 2009. As you can see two of them took this very seriously and jumped the gun
almost too early. Well... here I am, blazing my way through school trying not to think about babies cause I know I can't have any till I graduate. I know I know... I've only been married for almost 17 months; but you see... were settled. Forever. In Rexburg (sigh....). I married a man with a career and he's 5 years older than I. So, he has been set up here for some time and I just get to be along for the ride. It's nice most of the time. Him being done with school and us never having to worry about where we might end up or how we'll end up there. So, the excuse that we can't bring a child into our world because we are not prepared or cannot handle the responsibility or cannot afford or will have to tote around the U.S. is not an excuse. Okay.. so onto being hungry...
I paid for my school clothes all growing up by baby sitting. I love kids. I feel rather knowledged on the subject of children; especially without having any of my own. (I don't need to hear about how hard it is or what a responsibility or anything, I know I know I know) The idea of having to take care of a teeny little baby does not frighten me in the least. The idea of popping a BABY out of ME on the other hand is horribly terrifying. I've gone through bouts of wanting a baby and not wanting one at all. Feeling much too young (I'm 22) and then feeling like I'm getting too old. (In the Mormon culture... 22 is plenty old to start a family). To be honest, I want to be done having kids by the time I'm 35 if I can help it; sooner if I can manage that. So.... I kinda want to get started. I don't feel pressured at all, especially since 2 of the 4 of us are already expecting. I just personally want a baby. My husband is not at all ready, hence the fact that we are not "trying" right now. He's almost 27, but he doesn't care, he says that he's not the one who has to have the babies and raise them, I'm the one that has to be young. I'm not ready right this second... because I don't want to be wheeled into the Hospital in my graduation gown (ew, horrible image) But how do I get a hold on myself and get rid of the baby hunger for a few more months? It's driving me mad. Not even kidding when I say all of my friends and most of my family are expecting or have just had babies. These are the times when it's the worst
- Sacrament meeting when all around me are babies looking all cute and cuddly.
- Seeing Fathers holding their infants.
- Seeing a pregnant woman
- Looking at baby furniture (I can't help myself!!!!)
- Walking through a parking lot and seeing a car seat in a car
- (don't think I'm crazy) hearing a crying baby (I want to hold them and calm them down, cause I know chances are I probably can. I always have)
- Being around my pregnant family and feeling a teensy eentsy bit left out.
- Right now not being in school; I have waaaay too much time on my hands to feel lonely and think about it (next semester starts in 2 weeks... boo).
So. What to do, what to do.... I am surrounded by growing belly's and mostly happy women about it. I have a husband who all but cringes when I mention babies and "trying" dates. And I just cannot help myself... I want a gosh darn baby next summer! Blasted farming for getting in the way.
The Happy Seedless Couple
My neice Claire and I. She made me the baby hungriest of them all.