That is what I was going to mention was the first neat thing about this 20th week. This morning I felt some harder than normal kicks so I looked down and could see my stomach moving. It was the craziest looking thing. It sure makes me happy, though!
Weight: Oh man... I can't fit into my pre pregnancy jeans. Not because of my belly, oh no, I just unzip and they SHOULD fit, but nooooo, MY THIGHS ARE TOO BIG!!! It's rather disturbing. Sure, I should be gaining weight, that's fine, but WHY do I need it in my thighs?! Someone told me fat stores. Fat stores my rear (which is also getting bigger). I eat ALL the time. She get's enough food just from my diet! Apparently so do I since I'm packing it on. In the last week I've noticed my face has also gotten fatter. Which has been the hardest blow. I knew it would happen, but I honestly truly didn't think it would happen till 7 or 8 months - NOT 5!! I even asked Jaren if he noticed - AND HE SAID YES!!! Also, I've decided as soon as I'm whole again and she is out I'm training for a half marathon. It should help with not having to buy a new wardrobe. Again. Now, I hope that you all realize I'm just being dramatic. Sure, it bothers me, sure it's depressing at times and sure, I wish I was gaining the weight a bit differently (like some more up top instead of down low). But I eat enough and my number one goal/concern is the health of this little girl. So, none of the "your SUPPOSED to gain weight" stuff. I KNOW. And none of the, "You had better not starve yourself! Your supposed to be eating more!" I KNOW. I do. And NONE of the "your eating for two! So it's okay that you ate an entire bag of hot cheetos in 2 days because it was the first thing that tasted REALLY good that added up to over 1,700 calories" becuase NO, I'm not eating for two. Unless my second half only takes in an extra 300 calories instead of 1,500. Drives me nuts when people say that. That's how I'm going to get fat. Or fatter. I've got 5 more months left to get fat!! Yikes....
And whining and complaining and being dramatic about this stuff helps me cope. But know I'm totally happy with where I am. I fall more and more in love with this little girl every day.
Exercise: I had a bad run for a few weeks. With traveling twice during that time and getting sick and then having it rain and be nasty for the other bit of time I've not gone walking. And really, I'm convinced that's why my face is fat. Also part of why my lower back is KILLING me all the time. So - goal this week. Walk every single day. I usually jog as well, because I can't just walk - drives me nuts. But I do have a treadmill now, so inclimit weather is no excuse. Lofty goal, my friends... but it's the only way I feel okay about the fatness.
I still have the tired days, but lately if I get myself up and take some of that Drenamin that my Chiropractor gave me and eat I feel better. It's so hard for me to fall asleep, though, that I can't take naps very well. It's ANNOYING. Yesterday I laid down for 30 minutes and was wide awake. So was my girl, moving and kicking and keeping me company. I finally got sick of it, got up and ate some Ramen, took some Drenamin and vacuumed my house. I slept amazingly last night!
Today I bought my first pack of diapers. I went to Sams Club and got size 3 huggies - HOLY COW. Almost 50 bucks. Oh my! This was my conversation with Jaren when I got home:
me: Diapers are EXPENSIVE!
Jaren: oh yeah? how much?
me: 50 bucks for a box!
Jaren: so you didn't buy them? (sounding hopeful)
me: of course I did. we are going to have to get them either now or later, mine as well spread it out.
Jaren: yeah......
Also, clearance at Gap Kids - AMAZING. I got three things. I'll post a picture later. Two were 5 bucks and another was 7. I think once a month I'll go raid their clearance. There was a VERY cute pair of jeans for when she's walking, but even on sale they were 17 bucks.... I couldn't do it. I really, really wanted to. But it's still early and I'll find cute stuff again for cheaper. Or so I tell myself.
20 Week Picture
It seems that when I wear some of the stuff that I bought on my maternity shopping trip it falls on days that I don't take a weekly picture. But not this time! The shirt I'm wearing I got at Nordstrom rack, normally 88 bucks. I got it MUCH much cheaper. And I can wear it for just about the whole time, I think. It's a medium where I normally would wear a small. Man I hope I fit into my stuff again. The jeans are maternity. I got them at A Pea In the Pod which used to be MiMi's Maternity. Normally 80 or 90 bucks for 38! Nothing I bought was full priced. Oh wait, some of the stuff at Old Navy was, but it was cheap. I wear them all the time now. Because my beautiful non belly panel jeans DON'T FIT ANYMORE. don't rub it in.
Also, all of my pictures have been inside. I didn't really notice until a cousin of mine posted a belly picture outside. She suggested stainding in a potato field. Brilliant! So I did. The sun was awful bright this morning, but the spuds are beautiful!The next three pictures are of a dress I also bought with the intent to wear with a growing belly. I am in love with this thing. It has some weird bustle thing in the back, but I don't care. It's light and flowy and cute. I found it at Down East when Victoria was trying on jeans. I put it on over my clothes and walked around the store with it - I was amazed that it fit! It's an XS. But I think it's the draw string thing in the front. I just take out a bit as my belly get's bigger and it fits! It's Deisel and was normally 80 bucks and I got it for 30. Sweet deal if you ask me.
So, it has been brought to my attention that it looks like I'm arching my back in my pictures. I guess it would give you that impression if you had a huge belly hanging off your front and a huge REAR poking out your back. If you remember my 6 week picture (where I am actually wearing the same shirt as the picture below) where I was basically not pregnant, there was just a peanut in there, I still had a rear that stuck out. Well, the rear has gotten bigger and there is no arching of the back. Just a large front and back.My sister Lindsey came up this weekend to watch her boyfriend, Nate, run a marathon. And spend some time with him. I went to hang out with her while she volunteered at the Dam Marathon (she REALLY wanted the shirt:). She pulled my bag away from me to look at my belly, "Your not that big! You look so much bigger in your pictures. Do you arch your back?" Me - "NO." It really is funny, becuase I don't think I'm very big, then we take a picture and I look huge. She didn't believe me. Until we took this picture:
She agreed that okay, it is as big as it looks :)
Here is Lindsey and Nate.So, half way done! Every day is a bit closer to meeting my girl! Every day I wonder what she is going to look like. In my mind I see a little girl with dark skin, dark hair and dark eyes. I guess I just see a very cute teeny girl version of Jaren. It's hard to see how I can contribute much when I love the way he looks. Although, we do hope she has my nose. Jaren's is a little bigger and in his words, "a boy nose" :)
Oh, one more funny story. I went to Idaho Falls today with my friend, Sharlene and we were eating at Red Robin. A guy came out to bring us our food. The order was messed up so he went back to fix it. He came back, brought it to us and left. Then our server came over and said, "Don't talk to him very long, he'll get you pregnant." Both of us looked at each other, then at her and said, "We already are." haha. I think she was a little embarrased. I really hope I look pregnant and not fat. But with my face and thighs catching up - maybe not! Also, I'm curious as to the story behind that statement about the boy..... hmmm.....
Also, when I was in Boise I went swimming with Lena and her kids. I thought one of my swimsuits would fit - wrong. I had brought a pair of bikini bottoms to wear with the tankini top I thought would fit. And I also brought the top to wear under the tankini b/c I feel naked in some swimsuits. I ended up wearing the bikini - which was VERY uncomfortable. I'm glad no one was there. I felt like a massive whale chasing a toddler around. Lena let me borrow one of her maternity swimsuits for the summer. I've seen a picture of this swimsuit on the sidebar on facebook. So while I was in Target I found it, tried it on and liked it just as much as the picture - so I got it.
It's so nice being covered up! I don't feel as whalish. I also found a pair of shorts that aren't swim shorts, but should work anyway. 
